Running

Running from dreams
Running from hope
Running from you
Running from me
Running to be free

Running to catch up
Running to calm down
Running with a purpose
Running for fun

Running like the wind

Run east
Run west
South, North
Where next?

Run to the other side of the Earth

Run with the world
Run with oneself
Run to think
Run to forget

Running to be with you

Lost but always found
Found but never lost
Smiles bring tears
Tears bring pain

Run from love and hate

I hate running but
I always run,
I can’t run
Never could

Run from the light

I prefer to walk,
to take my time
to think of my life
to make it mine

I prefer to sit,
to sleep,
to dream,
about life

Can this be real?
This whole universe?
Could we run if death was upon us?
Would we try?

People run,
every single day.
The brave ones stand
and face their fears.

We run, from what scares us the most.

We run in our own special ways.

Mentally
Physically
Literally
Metaphorically

We will one day learn,
Running is not the answer.
Love, life, you
that is what matters

that is what counts
that is life
that is it

the answer
the truth
the meaning

No-one should run
No-one should fear
No-one should be alone
No-one should shed tears

We all need to learn
About ourselves
About people around us
About me
About you
About life.

My Long Lost Dream

Sighing a listful sigh
living a long lost dream
kiss me on my hand...
take me to the sea

Jump with me into the ocean
swim below the waves
sing our slow song
about a time, about our time

Look into my eyes
the waves wash the shore
smile with your eyes
your smile mocks me more

I cannot remember a time
when I felt so in love
I want you to be mine
I want to feel the floor

the sand in between my toes
the shells you hand too me
the laughter that I hear
the longing that I feel

I want to stay with you
beyond the open waters
lets travel the watery world
stay like this forever

Watch the twinkling stars
above our clear walls
no boundaries
only invisible flaws

But all good things must end
So take me by the hand
lead me out of the world
the world that we found

But on the solid earth
we will watch the water wave
standing on the shore
watching the world we crave

but fish grew legs
and so must we
and still we watch
the world beyond the sea

we promised that we would
we always will no doubt
return to the world
to what we're about

The wildness is calming
the sun dances once more
always in my dream
with a guy that I adore

sighing a listful sigh
living a long lost dream
kiss me on my hand...
take me to the sea

Last night

Lying against you
Your heart beating under my hand
I looked in your eyes
You caught me off guard

I felt your warmth
I heard your voice
So soft, so calm
And I guess I had lost

Remember how we would fight?
I’d win each and every time
You would say you wanted too
This was the war in which you prevailed

I felt myself go
I fell into the sky
You held me close
I felt I could die

I felt my heart stop
Steady beating was your own
I was a part of you
You were my everything

For those precious moments
I let go of the rail
I wasn’t in control
I felt safe with you

Your arms around my chest
Your lips on my own
I watched you from the corner
the corner of my eye

Your smile means the world too me
This I wish I could say
I wish you would just hear me
I fell for you that day

I fell into the cold air
Through the rays of light
You’re not an Angel
You’re not the saviour

But you are someone
A person I strive to be
You are someone I care for
Do you care for me?

Love is a sign of weakness
Love hurts my soul
But love is an entity
that resides in you

I could see my future
As bleak and unforgiving
as my past lives
my heart torn in two

When you’re by my side
I see eternity
In a whole other light
You shake the world
With your deep brown eyes
You question everything I once knew
To make it into something new
You alter the sun rays
You make is light at night
You warm my skin with your coolness
You make me squirm under my skin

I wish I was perfect
As perfect as you
I wish I was more
More then just me
I wish I was someone
Someone who deserves you
I wish I chose you
I wish I have you
I wish you are here
By my side
I wish…
I wish…
I wish my life away
Only to have you there.

Killing Joy

I need you like a bullet in the skull
I miss you like a knife through the veins
I love you like a stranger
You are my one and only, baby boy

I need you like water in my lungs
I miss you like my blood on the floor
I love you like drugs in my nose
You are my one and only, killing joy

I knew you where the one when you looked at me
Like you wanted me, Like you needed me
I knew you were my love when you kissed me
When you touched me, When you killed me

You came into my life and spun me upside-down
You twisted my words, You made me out
To be the liar, when it was your lies that cut
I was a fool for going along

I need you like a bullet in the skull
I miss you like a knife through the veins
I love you like a stranger
You are my one and only, baby boy

I need you like water in my lungs
I miss you like my blood on the floor
I love you like drugs in my nose
You are my one and only killing joy

Don’t touch me with those poisoned hands
Don’t look at me, I won’t back down
Don’t kiss me, I'm going mad
Don’t leave me, I’ll be around

Just scream… Your pain will disappear
Just scream… I won’t last forever
Just scream… You won’t find me here
Just bleed… Into the arms of your lover

Because I needed you like a bullet in the skull
I missed you like a knife through the veins
I loved you like a stranger
You were my baby boy

I needed you like water in my lungs
I missed you like my blood on the floor
I loved you like drugs in my nose
You are my one, my only, my killing joy

I Think Of You Often

Stood in front of you
Your hands resting on the base of my spine
I'm so weak around you
Being with you I feel like I could fly

I wish I could show you
Just the once, how you make me feel
I know you would turn to run
but that’s a chance I've gotta take

I fell into your eyes
Your arms seemed so welcoming
I reached for you in my dreams
It was always you, before our eyes had met

Everything I do
I do this all for you
Every breath I take
My life was for this moment

I guess every step’s a risk
To step closer, to stumble and fall
Every reach I’m losing control
But you’re worth the fix; you were always the goal

Walking in a dream state
I was always the type to fail in this game
If this was a ride
I guess I would be the last one on

I fell into your eyes
Your arms seemed so welcoming
I reached for you in my dreams
It was always you, before our eyes had met

Tears falling from my eyes
You scare me in every way
Of every second of every breath,
I wouldn't have it any other way

Like a child, I reach for you constantly
Like a lover, I gaze into your eyes
Only to realise, that you were more
More then I could ever have wanted

I wish, I pine, I crave for your smile
Your hand in mine, I'm a better person
I get that feeling to turn and run
And yet I stand and fight

Because forever is a long time
And yet it’s all okay
To stand at the edge of reason
Because you’re the one who will save the day

I think of you a lot
You’re in my dreams often
I think of you when I work
I wish you were beside me when I'm sleeping

I know we have our own pasts
Things are never that certain
That we have our own stories
And yet they match up perfectly

What do you see in me?
A screw up?  A heart breaker?
Or do you see something more
Deeper then any other?

I sit and often wonder
How did I ever get so lucky?
To know that the road is uncertain
And it will be very bumpy

And yet, for you, I am willing
To hold on to the seat upon I am sitting
Your hand pressed against mine so tightly
Because you’re worth all this fighting

Maybe you should have stayed away
Better to be safe then sorry
I look to the future
And see nothing but worry

I wish you were here
Lying besides me in our bed
Your heart beating gently in your chest
Your hands running through my hair

And I still smell your sweet scent
And taste your gentle kisses
I think of you when I'm in the rain
And I ache when I realise I miss you

I know just one thing
Apart from how much I feel for you
That one day in the future
I shall be wearing white for you

For this I know is true
And you’ll be waiting for me
And then it’ll be okay… because I’ll be with you
And then it’ll be okay… because I’ll be yours
And it’s okay, because that’s what I look forwards too
And it’s okay, because my life will be with you
It’s okay… because I love you.

I miss you...

How can I say I'm sorry,
when you don’t listen?
How can I say I love you,
when you look away?
With all my broken heart I miss you,
But you don’t feel the same.....

Looking back it’s clearer now,
remember when I was down?
Friends comforted me, but you just let rip,
saying I was worthless,
And a pile of shit.

Well fuck you,
I’m over it now,
No more bending backwards,
It’s my turn to shout.

So listen up,
you rotting mound of crap,
It’s my turn to stand in the light,
To take the lead,
To scream and shout,

You worthless pile of shit.

I Guess (Story of a Lonely Heart)

I don’t understand it
I guess I never will
You swore you'd never leave me
You swore that you where real

I sat up and cried
a thousand hours no less
and still the thought of you...
makes me clutch my chest

you gave the sunshine
the moonlight in the night
you sung about the blueness
the blueness in my eyes

and yet you turn and leave me
standing all alone
I guess this is being grown up
I can’t take it no more

I guess I'll never understand
why you turned to leave
I guess I'll run in circles
even though I know where I live
I guess I'll try to understand
these feelings I cannot hide
and yet I still meant nothing
I still meant nothing

You promised me love
that I could not refuse
you promised me a world
that I thought I knew

You held my hand
many a night and still you run to hide
from this love I was missing
from this love I was missing

I guess I'll never know
why I sat up and cried
I guess I'll never know
how you could ever lie
this love wasn’t eternal
but, fuck, it was strong
now I'm licking open wounds
wounds of you....

So whisper once more
how much you can’t deny
that my lips are the softest
you have ever tried

so whisper once again
how I was by your side
I never let you down and ....
I never left you alone did...

I guess I'll never see
the passion in your eyes
I guess I'll always whisper
about something I cannot hide
and for this moment at least
I know I'll be alright,
‘cos I sat and listened
I sat and listened....

I guess I'll never
I guess I'll never
I guess I'll watch you leave

I guess I'll never
I guess I'll never
I guess this was all a twisted fantasy

I guess I'll whisper
I guess I'll whisper
my last sacred good bye.....