Falling into the Darkness

Falling into the darkness,
you held a knife to my throat,
begging for forgiveness
begging for the lies

"Love me"
you push it deeper
"Say you are true"
your voice makes me shudder

How can I tell you the truth?
You are not the one for me
How can I look into your eyes
you plan to take my life

My eyes open,
to look into your eyes
I wish you'd push it in
push in your knife

How can I love you?
When all you do is cause me pain
How can I look into your eyes
you plan to murder me

Again you beg,
"Lie to me,
Lie to me again and again,
Just tell me you love me,"

you know me,
I never could lie to save my life,
but still you look at me,
with those menacing eyes

I look to the window...
the police will find me soon
but you read my mind
and squeeze the metal tighter

blood... rises to the surface
the precious river of life
and you made me cry
begging "KILL ME TONIGHT"

But you don't,
you pull away,
The knife still in front of you...
I see my escape

"I can never love you,
for you are not mine to hold,
I can never and will never
stay in your arms again,"

You blink, a moment of weakness
But then you switch
From niceness to the nastiness inside
you growl, under your breath

The wildness escapes from your eyes
but I act in time,
the knife goes through your ribcage,
you gasp... I run...

The door... you locked me in
The key is in your hand,
You fall to face me,
Knowing what I would do,

My heart in my mouth
I cross the room to you
You look at me,
with your last breath you whisper

"I loved you from the moment I saw you,
I loved you before I knew of you,
You are my Angel, and I the demon
I will haunt you until we reunite in Hell,"

you die,
your heart slowly stopping
the blood is warm on the floor
I cant help but cry

The door gets kicked down,
I am pulled out,
your body is left there to rot
I'm pulled out into the cold.

A woman sits near me,
"Here," she hands me a parcel,
"What is it?" I ask,
She gets up and leaved me.

I open it,
Only to find,
A ring with the engraving
of our names...

I kept it,
Until I was alone one night,
With you in my mind
I threw it into the sea,

The place of you and me
The place where I lost myself
The place I love to hate
The place that you destroyed

You where a mistake,
I'm sorry for all the pain
But, you are not for my life
You are for my Hell

So, leave me...
And leave me for good
This may not be the total truth
But you get what I mean,
There may have been no ring, no police, but you did kill me
So, sleep soundly on you bed of stone,
I will not waste forever on you...

Don’t Ask / I Just Want You

Would you come and dance if I asked you too?
Would you look my way if I smiled at you?
Would you run and hide from me like a child
Or would you take my hand and lead me into the night

‘Cos all I know… is that… your eyes are the brownest I’ve seen
And all I care… is you… like me as much as I want to like you

I’m just a geek, lonely as hell…
Then I saw you from the twisted stairwell
Do I head on over to you and risk saying my farewell?
Or should I take a moment and stare at you standing there?  (standing there)

‘Cos I… just know… you are the prefect one in the room
And all I need… is you… to notice I exist and I’m in love with you

If you don’t ask, you’ll never gain
If you run, you may never say
If you ask, you will always win this game
Sing it back to me
If you don’t ask, you’ll never gain
If you run, you may never say
If you ask, you will always win this game
The game of truth or dare

He may have been there, that night he took my breath away
But when I started walking over to him
A girl took his hand to lead him away
His eyes looked at mine, he smiled and I felt like I could die

‘Cos all I know… is that you are the only one in the room
I would have… I wish I… but I could never have you

Dear Sun

You’re not meant to shine today,
I wanted the clouds to hide my shame
My heart is shattered in two
The skies aren't meant to be blue

The night was not meant to leave
Like the skies were meant to weep
And all I asked for, wished to be true
Was that no sun would shine for you

8 Pains

Flying in the deep blue,
I hear your song,
Crystal clear,
And light as day,
I felt myself be
pulled to you.
As the waves wash over me,
I see you cry,
For you I will wash
away my fears,
For you I will die.

Do not fret my perfect angel,
Darkness will leave,
Light will come,
As you smile,
So it does.
A touch of your hand,
The sparkle in your eye,
Makes me glad
To be alive.

The darkness returns,
And breaks my heart,
I watch you kiss another,
With no feeling for your hero...
...I flee...
Into the darkness
That surrounds me.

Broken and torn,
Tears in my dark eyes.
You run to me,
I push you away,
No more lies,
No more tears
You strike me
Blood rises to my skin
And so the fight begins....

We used to bask
In the light of love,
We used to laugh
But that is no more.
Why me?  Why now?
Why you?  Why her?
With my weapon of hate
You shall fall,
You shall cry,
I shall die.
Alone with a broken soul,
In the night that is my home,
Without you.

Now I drift,
In the vastness in which I live,
A vastness without you,
Without feelings,
So the knife may slice
At my priceless flesh.

I hope to die,
I hope to fall,
Into the pits of hell,
My new home,
I want you to watch me rot.

This body you once loved
This body is no more
I am no more
Like my love for you
No more.

Angry

My Angry Eyes
Do they smile?
Or seethe with pain
of conflicted mace?

My Angry Heart
It hurts my chest
My breath is laboured
As I wound my breast

My Angry Hands
They tear at my skin
Ruby red forgiveness
Like a junkie they need

My Angry Tongue
It flicks like a snake’s
My teeth do clench
As I snap at your face

And yet you sit there quietly
Watching my animalistic pain
My back arched like a panther
My teeth are all on show

You listen to my crying
My whimpers of long lost freedom
And you watch as I hurt myself
A tormented soul you see

Your skin is scarred
That I do see
But your eyes are clear
They light up when they see me

You let me take my time
My broken heart does heal
And you help me when I reach for you
For forgive me when I don’t

City of Lost Souls

In the city of the lost souls,
that's where I found my faith.
A twisted deliverance of evil
in a cruel and nasty fate.

The eyes were dark and menacing,
and nothing was left to say.
Just a gasp to my last breath
life escaped from my lips.

A knurled and hungry hand
took a hold of my hair.
Dragged me to my knees.
This I thought was the end,
death among the streets.

Of this quiet towns light,
an angel came to my side.
Disguised as my murderer,
he looked into my eyes.

He breathed a gentle breath,
and moved hair from my face.
'Why…..' he whispered,
his voice catching on wire.
'Why are you out tonight?'

He let go of my hair,
as lank and plain as it is.
And stood me up straight,
still gazing into my face.

Memories happen to music,
and this was to the chords of us.
His heart started beating,
and his eyes came alive,
on this quiet night.

How was I too know?
What would happen to me?
I didn't wait one moment,
I kicked and turned to flee.

My legs did not fail,
it was my heart and my senses that did.
I ran from his gentle touch,
into this misty dusk.

Back to my hellhole.
My demon waiting for my return.
A bottle thrown out of the window,
as I screamed,
as he hurled
….a bottle of Jack Daniels,
straight into my face.

And so my tormenter died
a night of slow and painful sleep.
His cold grey eyes,
had nothing left to see.

I found him slumped,
he looked half asleep.
I thought no more,
other then to check his wallet and
shit……
that's when I saw,
his eyes rolled
to the back of his head.

The heart of my tormenter,
was nothing but a fly,
curled up and dried,
death took him long ago.

And so the lights
they have been off since.
I never go home.
His body may be gone,
but the memory lives on.

I only enter the room,
for an hour sleep,
only to awake with diamonds
on my skin,
and a prayer to a lost faith.

I still walk the streets,
to find some light in the world,
only to be rained on,
spat at,
and called to from cars.

At least the moon never dies,
I only wish it does.
Maybe then this world,
won't be full of the things,
the creatures of the night,
who follow me home.

I found him once again,
under the street lamp
where we met.
His hands were tired and old.

As he looked up,
a smile touched his lips,
and the harshness melted
into the cold.

'Why are you out?'
He whispered,
as he touched my soul,
so softly as he did with my hair.

I smiled shyly,
and stood before him,
I was lost,
and unafraid.

'Why are you?'
my voice caught,
stranded like his own.

'I'm waiting,'
he paused,
and looked away,
unsure of what he was.

'I'm late,'
I held my breath,
and waited for time
to pass.

'For what?'
he answered,
after a little more.

'I kept you waiting,
for a month,
more-or-less,
I'm sorry,
you must be cold….'

He blinked,
I froze,
He smiled,
I smiled.

And the world
just disappeared.
'It's ok,'
he whispered,
'You're worth the wait,
I would have waited for years…'

I held out my hand,
his soft skin touched mine,
and we walked into
the nights life.

For in the city of the lost souls,
that's where I found my faith.
A twisted deliverance of evil
in a cruel and beautiful fate.

His eyes once dark and menacing,
had so much more to say.
Just a hold of his hand,
we'll take forever in a day……
…in a day.