Sing Me My Song (My Past Still Haunts Me)

Watching the world pass me by,
No one notice me cry,
kicking,
screaming,
punching the wall...

where am I now?
Stuck in the moment
between heaven and hell
kissing the ground
not long from now
thanking the sky
the day turns to night
and all we have is gone
no one hears me cry

Wishing one wish
take me in to your arms
kissing my breath
as I break and fall
stroking my senses
with your knives of words
leaving me in the warmth of my blood
on this earth

kicking the habit
how did we start
ignoring my feelings
never being anything but this
you smile your smile
sing me my song
just us in this limbo
senseless of the world

watching the leaves
from green they turn black
smelling the roses
the glass beneath my feet
never understanding
what we had is gone

but friends last forever,
that is what they say
so, my dark being
friends we remain

my past may be murky,
unclear all the same
we may have hurt each other
but its all but a game
neither of us are winners
so therefore we remain

stuck in our moments
on those summer days
watching the ocean
from our spot on the sand
remember the noises
the sights, the feelings again

You watch me as I sleep
that's how it will remain
we are different
playing different games
I guess what I am saying
is this is how it stays
stuck in our moments
watching the world
between our heaven
and our hell

Sat on the Sidewalk

Sat on the side walk
Never knowing who what where but why…
Oh my…
Smiling in sunshine,
Covered with angel dust and so….
We go…

On a Rock and Rolling-coaster
Round the world in eighty days
I never look back at where I kissed her
But never had the courage to say…

You, and me, always sat under that tree
You, and him, always kissed in front of me
With no passion to say
“Hey, that you could only ever see,
So far in front your nose”…
So please, sing with me…

On a Rock and Rolling-coaster
Round the world in eighty days
I never look back at where I kissed her
But never had the courage to say…

Follow me deeper
Follow me into the sea
He swallowed water
I fell to my knees
Your tears where falser then I ever could see
What a, mistake I made again….

I'm on a Rock and Rolling-coaster
Round the world in eighty days
I never look back at where I kissed her
I now have the courage to say
I have grown older without you in my life
I have moved over to the state of sunshine
I am so over, what you did too me
And we’re playing happy families…

Sat on the side walk
Always knowing who what where and why…
Oh my…
Smiling in sunshine, covered with angel dust and so….
I know…

Sam

I watch Angelic feathers falling from the sky
Have you fallen from my arms?
Have you left for good?
Or are you still here, my love?

I may never have met you,
But trust me my love for you is real
You are meant to be in my life
My brother, beside my side

Something went wrong
How can I go on?
Knowing that you will never be
The one to catch me?

My brother, you smile makes me laugh
My brother, you watch over us all
Our mother, misses you around
But you are not gone

I look for you, even though I cannot see you
Are you real?  An angel in my mind

Running

Running from dreams
Running from hope
Running from you
Running from me
Running to be free

Running to catch up
Running to calm down
Running with a purpose
Running for fun

Running like the wind

Run east
Run west
South, North
Where next?

Run to the other side of the Earth

Run with the world
Run with oneself
Run to think
Run to forget

Running to be with you

Lost but always found
Found but never lost
Smiles bring tears
Tears bring pain

Run from love and hate

I hate running but
I always run,
I can’t run
Never could

Run from the light

I prefer to walk,
to take my time
to think of my life
to make it mine

I prefer to sit,
to sleep,
to dream,
about life

Can this be real?
This whole universe?
Could we run if death was upon us?
Would we try?

People run,
every single day.
The brave ones stand
and face their fears.

We run, from what scares us the most.

We run in our own special ways.

Mentally
Physically
Literally
Metaphorically

We will one day learn,
Running is not the answer.
Love, life, you
that is what matters

that is what counts
that is life
that is it

the answer
the truth
the meaning

No-one should run
No-one should fear
No-one should be alone
No-one should shed tears

We all need to learn
About ourselves
About people around us
About me
About you
About life.

My Long Lost Dream

Sighing a listful sigh
living a long lost dream
kiss me on my hand...
take me to the sea

Jump with me into the ocean
swim below the waves
sing our slow song
about a time, about our time

Look into my eyes
the waves wash the shore
smile with your eyes
your smile mocks me more

I cannot remember a time
when I felt so in love
I want you to be mine
I want to feel the floor

the sand in between my toes
the shells you hand too me
the laughter that I hear
the longing that I feel

I want to stay with you
beyond the open waters
lets travel the watery world
stay like this forever

Watch the twinkling stars
above our clear walls
no boundaries
only invisible flaws

But all good things must end
So take me by the hand
lead me out of the world
the world that we found

But on the solid earth
we will watch the water wave
standing on the shore
watching the world we crave

but fish grew legs
and so must we
and still we watch
the world beyond the sea

we promised that we would
we always will no doubt
return to the world
to what we're about

The wildness is calming
the sun dances once more
always in my dream
with a guy that I adore

sighing a listful sigh
living a long lost dream
kiss me on my hand...
take me to the sea

Last night

Lying against you
Your heart beating under my hand
I looked in your eyes
You caught me off guard

I felt your warmth
I heard your voice
So soft, so calm
And I guess I had lost

Remember how we would fight?
I’d win each and every time
You would say you wanted too
This was the war in which you prevailed

I felt myself go
I fell into the sky
You held me close
I felt I could die

I felt my heart stop
Steady beating was your own
I was a part of you
You were my everything

For those precious moments
I let go of the rail
I wasn’t in control
I felt safe with you

Your arms around my chest
Your lips on my own
I watched you from the corner
the corner of my eye

Your smile means the world too me
This I wish I could say
I wish you would just hear me
I fell for you that day

I fell into the cold air
Through the rays of light
You’re not an Angel
You’re not the saviour

But you are someone
A person I strive to be
You are someone I care for
Do you care for me?

Love is a sign of weakness
Love hurts my soul
But love is an entity
that resides in you

I could see my future
As bleak and unforgiving
as my past lives
my heart torn in two

When you’re by my side
I see eternity
In a whole other light
You shake the world
With your deep brown eyes
You question everything I once knew
To make it into something new
You alter the sun rays
You make is light at night
You warm my skin with your coolness
You make me squirm under my skin

I wish I was perfect
As perfect as you
I wish I was more
More then just me
I wish I was someone
Someone who deserves you
I wish I chose you
I wish I have you
I wish you are here
By my side
I wish…
I wish…
I wish my life away
Only to have you there.

Killing Joy

I need you like a bullet in the skull
I miss you like a knife through the veins
I love you like a stranger
You are my one and only, baby boy

I need you like water in my lungs
I miss you like my blood on the floor
I love you like drugs in my nose
You are my one and only, killing joy

I knew you where the one when you looked at me
Like you wanted me, Like you needed me
I knew you were my love when you kissed me
When you touched me, When you killed me

You came into my life and spun me upside-down
You twisted my words, You made me out
To be the liar, when it was your lies that cut
I was a fool for going along

I need you like a bullet in the skull
I miss you like a knife through the veins
I love you like a stranger
You are my one and only, baby boy

I need you like water in my lungs
I miss you like my blood on the floor
I love you like drugs in my nose
You are my one and only killing joy

Don’t touch me with those poisoned hands
Don’t look at me, I won’t back down
Don’t kiss me, I'm going mad
Don’t leave me, I’ll be around

Just scream… Your pain will disappear
Just scream… I won’t last forever
Just scream… You won’t find me here
Just bleed… Into the arms of your lover

Because I needed you like a bullet in the skull
I missed you like a knife through the veins
I loved you like a stranger
You were my baby boy

I needed you like water in my lungs
I missed you like my blood on the floor
I loved you like drugs in my nose
You are my one, my only, my killing joy